Riverside Tragedy: A Tale of Guilt and Loss

Its was a few years ago, but it felt like yesterday, whenever i think about it i feel alot of guilt, because i could prevented the tragedy, down by the riverside. Me, Lea, AJ and Rachel made a little club called alar its stands for Amanda, Lea, AJ and Rachel.we starded the club because we thought it was cool and when you are a teenager, you need to have space to be yourself and experimenting with things you wanna try. We used to play Poker, Black jack and other things. Its a little old treehouse by the riverside, its a half mile into the woods. We had the club for over 3 years, in the late teenage years, we starded to do drugs and exploring alcohol. The night was longer, the drinks got better, life got better, intil my parents past away they drove into the river because they were loking after me. To be honest i dident give shit about them, they always wanna live thier dreams through me .They dont have any siblings neither do i. the municipality send me to foster care, they dident care about me. It was our alars anniversery, 5 years . We held a party, form ourself, but it ended in an accident. AJ was really waisted, she climbed down and faineted into the river. The next morning i woke up and i had the worst hangover ever. I started to remember things from last night, and the first thing that came to my mind was how I forced AJ to drinking more booze because she has always been a very careful girl when it comes to alcohol. I looked around and she was nowhere to be found. I woke the others so we could begin to look but she wasent here. I looked down into the river and I saw something that stuck out of the water, it was hair, in the second I saw it I jumped into the water and got her up but i couldent find her pulse.in the mean time Rachel called an ambulance, they came but they said it was late, They said that she has been dead for hours. I could not understand that my best friend was died. I have never felt so guilty in my interie life. because our actions is what set things in motions and my best friend is died because of me. I spent every hour just going though my motions but i couldn't even get my emotions to come out, nothing would be the same.