Diary entry: Samantha's Hollywood dream

Today it is the 15th of July. I have now been in Hollywood for 1 month, and it is still not what I expected. Everything here is so big, and I find it hard to fit in. My dream of becoming an actor is not going very well, I have sent a lot of applications to different kinds of agent’s and burros, but I haven’t heard from them yet. I am very frustrated, and therefore it has been an unbelievable disappointing month. I miss my small hometown, where I knew everybody and I wasn’t alone doing everything. But I still keep dreaming of something good will happen to me.

Beside that I still live in my poor and little apartment. Right now I cannot afford a bigger or better apartment, but I still hope for better times. My parents call me daily hoping for better news; they begin to worry about me. I think they thought I would get a job immediately, but I am still unemployed.

There is one thing, which made the day wonderful on a second. When I opened my mailbox I found a letter from [NAVN B]. It is know 5 weeks since I last saw him, and I miss him everyday! He still is my love of my life, and I couldn’t do anything else, than smile when I saw his letter. He wrote that he had spoke with my parents, and they are worried, but it isn’t news for me. But he also wrote that he missed my smile and laugh. And that made me think it is a long time ago, since I had a real smile on my face, and I start miss my hometown more and more, and especially [NAVN B]. In the end of the letter [NAVN B] wrote, that he knew how much I wanted this dream to come through, and he was sorry for the way it ended between us. And if it were an opportunity, he would like to move to Hollywood, and be together with me. He would do anything to support me the best he could, and help me. Tears ran down on my cheeks, when I read that. I couldn’t believe the words.