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I don’t know where I should begin. My head is in trouble I can’t think, everything is so unfair. Why you? You have never harmed a fly? It’s not because god doesn’t like you, it was a car accident. I’ll pray for you every minute, every hour and every day the rest of my life. You were my best friend, and the most grateful guy I’ve ever meet. I will never forget all the good times we had together, and you will always be in my heart. All in my family is thinking about you and your parents. I hope you are good, I’m sure that you are. In the school every one feeling so bad and they can’t understand, like me. Everything is just so empty. Mom and dad think that I should begin to psychologist to help me. But I wouldn’t right know, all I want is you back, but I wouldn’t get you. So I wish that god will protect you and give you everything you are a boy with a big heart so I want you don’t be afraid. I will miss you so much the rest of my life. But I’m sure that I will be okay. It takes time to let me open again, but everything is going to be okay. You know Jessica our best girlfriend, she missed you to, and we will make it together. I had been home with you to get some of your stuff. Your grandmother said that I was supposed to get it. I get your photo album with all the pictures of us and your games; you know that I always love them. It was weird to be at your home without you. I know you are dead but if you want you can come home to me and be there even I can’t see you. Give me a signal. Right know I am standing here in front of your grave on the street. There are many flowers and lights, and people pray for you. I can’t avoid to get tears in my eyes, I’ve never try to lost somebody before, and I’d never trust that you will be the first one. I could be my grandparents, but not you! I wish we could be together in the heaven, but I’m sure that you want me to live my life. You always wish me luck, so I give that present to you. I give you some purple flowers; hope you can see them where you are. I will stay here until tonight and think about you and your family. Promise me to take care of them. From now I’m not afraid to die, because I know there will be a amazing angel to take care of me. I can’t wait to see you, promise me that you will wait for your best friend. In the heart you will be safe but never forget. Rest in peace John I love you and I will never forget our close relationship.