The odd one out: personlig refleksion

I do not recall any specific event, where I felt like the odd one out. I could imagine that I possibly felt a bit like an outsider when I would go to a social event with my parents, where there would only be adults and smaller children present. The adults would talk about politics or other boring grown up stuff, and the children would just run around being louder than their parents would allow them to be. So I would basically just sit on a chair for 5 straight hours and be bored to death.

Now that I am a bit older, my parents can’t force me to go to these downright boring social meetings, but I still feel that it is obligatory that I go with them, even though I feel like I have no one to talk to. If I don’t go, my parents will be kind of insulted and disappointed, even though they won’t say it to my face. They would just express it with their body language. I don’t think that they realize that I’m an outsider at these events, and that there is no one my age.

Usually, my brother would go with us, but he doesn’t live at home anymore, so we don’t see him as often either way.