Something on the Mind

Here I stay. Some people say I look sad today, but I can’t see it. In whole my life, I have hated myself. I go in a school with a girl called Sophie. Oh my god, she is so beautiful. I can’t keep my eyes from her. And hers body, it’s just perfect. And now think you why I can look sad. But here yesterday said my best friend Jonas to me, that he was in loved with a girl. Of course I was happy, because he is my best friend. But here today 8at a clock, Jonas came to me and said. Sophie and I have an affair. I didn’t say anything, I just smiled. Now I am sitting on my bed, and cry because I like Sophie. There is something special with her eyes. They are so blue and big, and every time I look in them, they smile to me. I have never believed that I should be in love with a so perfect girl. Because I know that I'm not is a hot boy actually I’m very ugly. But that’s my mom’s mistake. I know I have to go to school tomorrow, but I can't see Sophie in the eyes, because she knows that I like her, and what about Jonas? He is my best friend, and also my brother and I won’t spoil the friendship, because I like a perfect girl. Right now I’m so confused and can’t think clear. Not only because my brother has taking my girl, I have been in loved with, in 2 years. But my parents are very Christianize, and they consider that because my family is black people, we have to date black people. But Sophie comes from Roseland and if my parents finds out that she is white, they will kill my brother. Maybe they won’t kill him, but they will never talk to him again, and my family will split up.