Dilemma

The thoughts were running through my mind with an enormous speed. My head was aking were badly. How could it all end up like this? I am so confused. He has just been so absent. Like if he was trying to avoid me or something. I did just try to make thing allright between us and now this happens. I really didn't see this one comming. But it did and now I'm sitting here. All alone. In a park. On a bench. Noone beside me. Its just me. All alone. The leaf in my hand is dry just as my mouth. I feel like I'm without any kind of abillity of talking. My head is still aking badly. My heart is beating faster and fster. What am I going to tell him? How is he going to react is my answer is no? I don't know what to do about myself right now. I'm speechless. I'm restless. I'm sad and I'm happy at the same time. I don't understand it. I look around. I see nothing but a lot of dead leafes and the black silhouetes of the big trees. Behind a group of black trees the black silhoutte of a human slowly moves towards me. It look like a tiny little dot between the huge black trees. Everything seems so big right now. Except me. I fell small. Terribly small. I feel like every single branch is twisting itself around me. I fell helpless. I really didn't think that this was going to happen to us. And deffernatly not so soon. We are so young I think. 17 is a quite young age for things like that isn't it? Of course if you are a gypsy its a quite normal age but I'm not a gypsy. He is not a gypsy. We don't even know any gypsys. I'm confused. Very confused. I look around again. The silhoutes has got way bigger and I can now see that its a boy. It walks faster and faster. It suddenly hits me. Its him. He is walking quick. He is nervous. Very nervous. What does he want? He left me here an hour ago? He is now only a few metres away from me. He walks slowly and carefully. He is now only a few steps away from me. The distance between us seems like a huge hole of sorrow. He slowly crosses the hole and now he is standing one step away from me. Instead of taking the last step he gets down on one knee. He takes my hand and look me in the eyes. "I ask you now again in hopes that you have thought about it and made up your mind", he says while he nervously smiles and takes a deep breath to prepair his next sentence. "Will you marry me?" I look at his big Green eyes. I smile at him. I look up and right into the stagelight. The audience is standing up giving their big applaus to Jake and I. We did it! We played the whole play with no mistakes. He hugs me tight and we wave at the audience who is still clapping and screaming. He takes my hand and we leave the stage. As I step down the stage I see my boyfriend standing at the bottom of the stairs. I jump into his arms and he wispers me in my ear: "You were great!"