It is the first time I’m writing in this. My mom gave me this to write my feelings down, so here goes nothing. It’s getting harder every day to be with Andrew. I know we have only known each other two years. But I don’t want to lose him. But it is so hard, when he lives 3340 miles from me. But I love him so much, I cannot give up on our love. A lot of people says is easy, cause we have phones and Skype so we can talk all the time. But I just wish he could have his arms around me. I remember how we met. It was a fun trip to Manchester. I remember my best friend Cameron and I went to Manchester to see Nickelback’s tour with Skillet on October the fourth in 2012. I was so exited and pumped, cause it was two of my favorites bands. I met Andrew, when Cameron said we stayed at his friend’s apartment. His friend was Andrew. My first impression of Andrew was he was sweet, funny and good-looking. He said I was staying in the guest room with own bathroom, cause I was the only girl in the apartment. The guest room I was staying in had a large bookcase. I remember he had a lot of the same books I had. Which I thought was fantastic, so we had a lot to talk about. Well the day at the concert, I was so pumped and exited. I remember sitting at breakfast and my legs shook like crazy. Cameron yelled at me, cause I made him crazy. Andrew just laughed at us, cause I kept shaking without meaning to. At the concert him and Cameron kept switching who carried me, so I could see. In the end it was only Andrew, cause Cameron had much to drink so he couldn’t carry me. The concert was fantastic. But when we went home, Cameron was so drunk we had to drag him home. He kept singing and yelling. I was kind of annoyed at him. He is always saying I’m embarrassing. He is lucky, he don’t remember the walk home. Under the home trip, he swung his arms around Andrew and I. He kept saying this was a fantastic night and Andrew was the perfect man for me. I was glad it was dark, cause I blushed. But I didn’t thought more about it. Andrew was showing Manchester to me the next day. Cameron was at bed rest, cause he had a major hangover. I liked Manchester, but I preferred New York. Oops I forgot to tell you, Cameron and I are living in New York, we are attending NYU. I know Nickelback was in New York with the same tour, but Skillet was only opening the concert for Nickelback in Europe. I like Skillet better than Nickelback, so I had to come to Europe to see Skillet and Nickelback. It was a great walk around Manchester with Andrew. He was so charming, funny, sweet and caring. I began to fall for him. It was quite stupid when we lived 3340 miles from each other. But all good things came to an end, when Cameron and I were going home the next day. The next couple of months we wrote and talked on phone together. Then he was going to New York with his class. It was their second year in university and it was a school trip. One of the days he visited Cameron and me. My old roommate fell in love with Cameron’s, so we switched without telling. Cause you can’t live boy/girl. But Cameron and I had been friends since kindergarten and our old roommates were so in love, so we did it of course. But now back to the story of the beginning of my relationship. Andrew came and we were having fun. Cameron was at work. Cameron had a girl with him, when he came home from work. It was a girl named Chloe and she was in my class. Cameron had asked her out all year. When he came in, he winked at me and mouthed, “She said finally yes” I mouthed back, “That’s my little boy” and winked. Cameron was two or three heads higher than me, but I was oldest. So since high school I have always called him little boy. He used to call me tiny [NAVN A]. My name is [NAVN A] and it means spicy. He thinks I’m a spicy and tiny person. So I think the name fits very well. Well we were playing games and all. When Chloe had to go home and Cameron walked her home. Andrew stayed and we played 20 questions and I don’t know exactly how, but I know we ended up kissing. It felt magical and passionate. My biggest secret is that was my first kiss. I was 19 and have never been kissed until that moment. I always wanted it to be perfect and it was. His last question was if I wanted to be with him and I said yes. I have not regretted it since. I miss him a lot and I still wish he was here with me. I miss him kissing me and holding me. But next year he is done with school. Then he will move to New York and find a job. He says he only want to be with me. He wanted to move now, but I want him to finish school. But my break is in two weeks and I am flying to Fort Wayne in Indiana. He is flying in the next day and I’m picking him up in the airport. We are spending Christmas for the first time together. We fly back to New York the 28th December. So we will be back at New Years. Chloe and Cameron are also going to Fort Wayne in Indiana. Cameron and I grew up there together. I know it will be a lovey Christmas. My family and Cameron’s family is holding Christmas together. Cameron and I are both only child and we think of each other as brother and sister. So since we met and became best friends, we have celebrated Christmas together. I don’t want to tell you, what I give them at Christmas. Cause I know Cameron will try to read this diary. I love Andrew and hope we do stay together; even if it is what everyone says when they are in love. I will go call my mom and thank her for this has helped. I love to write even if I am not the best at it. But my advice is fight for your relationship even it is hard and unfair. It is worth it in the end. If you love somebody, fight for him or her. But make sure they fight as hard as you do. Cause if they don’t, you are just wasting your time. That goes with friendship too. Stay and fight or give up and go. It is your choice, how much that person means to you. Well that’s all for today.
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