'Being Different': afskedsbrev om mobning og selvmordstanker

Dear mom and dad. As you know, I decided to take my own life. I am so sorry. but I just couldn’t stand all my problems anymore. I know I wasn’t good at telling you what kind of problems I had, so I made this letter to say goodbye and to tell you about everything.

As you know I started changing my style of cloth in 6th grade and in the start, it wasn’t a big problem, besides people looking a little strange at me. It started to affect me in a negative way in the end of 8th grade, where people started posting pictures and making fun of me. In the start I managed to ignore it for a while, even though I went home crying in my bed sometimes. I chose not to tell you about it, because I thought that it would stop. I know you don’t want to know this but I started cutting myself when I was 15 years, and from that day it just got worse and worse. I knew that if I did this I would ruin a big part of the family, and I you would go through a tough time. What you guys need to know is that I didn’t enjoy my life. I lost all my friends because they didn’t want to be seen with me. Even my best friend [NAVN B] didn’t want to speak with me. The thing that hurt the most is when friends you thought always would have your back just disappear from your life in a second. I Remember when [NAVN B] was forced by the class to pull me down on the ground and just punching me rapidly in the stomach. I went home that day and just started wondering “Is this the end?”. I had no one behind me, I had no friends. It was at that time I started thinking about taking my own life. I tried to take an overdose 2 times but none of them worked. I just wanted to just crawl up on something big and just jump and let go of everything, but couldn’t because I was too afraid to survive. I wanted to do it clean so I managed to find a rope in the garage. Weeks were passing and I was thought more and more about the rope and now I am standing right here on the chair with the rope tightened around my throat and writing this. I love you dad and I love you mom and I want you to explain it all to little [NAVN C] when he is ready. I also want you to know that you did nothing wrong and there was nothing you could have done to prevent what i am about to do. I would just have found another way. Goodbye Mom, Dad and [NAVN C] I will love you forever and I will never forget you…