From Victim to Aggressor

‘’From Victim to Aggressor: A Journey of Pain and Pleasure"

Written by [NAVN A]-

I am lost. I don't know what's happening to me anymore. I've discovered a disturbing pleasure in hurting others, and it makes me feel better. Growing up, my family's love of football was intense, to say the least. Whenever our team lost, they would become aggressive and sometimes take their anger out on people who supported the opposing team. As a child, I looked up to my dad and my big brothers for their strength and bravery in these moments of rage. But one day, I was bullied at school and couldn't defend myself. My dad was disappointed in me and urged me to fight back. The next day, he gave me a bat and told me to take revenge. I found the boy who had hurt me and repeatedly hit him in the face. The experience was shocking but also exhilarating. From that moment on, I developed a fascination with hurting people, especially after a match. Despite my love of violence, I don't look like a thug. I'm just a 19-year-old guy with curly hair and a friendly face. Strangers assume I'm a nice person. But my friends and I seek out fights after games to look cool and impress others. We hit people with bats, throw glasses, and engage in other dangerous activities. Lately, though, things have changed. I no longer enjoy hurting people as much. I feel guilty and troubled by my actions. People have started to distance themselves from me and label me as a 'dangerous animal' or an 'inhuman monster.' I don't want to be seen that way, but I'm not sure how to change. I fell in love with a girl, and I want us to have a future together, but I was told that it wouldn’t be possible if I kept on hurting people. Her dad wouldn’t allow her to stay with me because he's afraid of me hurting his daughter, and to be honest, I understand why he reacts the way he does. If I were in his position, I would probably do the same thing.