A Tough Decision

I sighed heavily. Why did things have to be so complicated? Deep inside, I knew what the right thing to do was – but I’m not sure that I have the courage. Maybe Justin could help. So I typed him a message. Asking what I should do. I didn’t know how hard it could be to hurt someone you love. I really love my girlfriend Lena. I can’t stand thinking how she would react if I told her. But if I don’t tell her, it will be so awkward being with her. But neither can I tell anyone else than Justin. If I tell others, Lena will just find out anyway. Justin is my best friend. We have been best friends since we went to kindergarten. We always help each other out in hard situations. But this one is harder, more serious.

It all started 4 days ago. I was visiting one of my best friends Lisa. She has asked me to come over. She wouldn’t tell me why, but it sounded like she had something to show me. Lena didn’t care if I was hanging out with other girls. It was the first time I had been in Lisa’s new house. The house was big and clean, and pretty luxury for a girl at that age. We ordered pizza as we always do. 20 minutes later it arrived. We ate and watched TV. But I dropped some pizza on my white shirt. She said that it could be washed of. She said that she could do it, and that it should be done now otherwise it wouldn’t get of. She told me to take of my shirt of, so I did. I had no problem to show my belly, it wasn’t weird or anything. I walked with her to the bathroom where she put the shirt in the sink. Suddenly she started looking at me, it was really weird and awkward. I tried to break the weirdness by asking what she would show me. She said: this! And then she began to take her clothes of. I asked her what she was doing. She answered: I want you to see our new spa and asked if I wanted to go with. I thought it could be fun and said: yes, but I will keep my underpants on so it’s not going to be weird. The water was lovely. But unexpectedly she started moving closer to me. I didn’t know what to do. So I laid my arm around her. Then she started touching me and kissing me. I was in complete panic, but I got carried away. We started making love.