A Slave's Account

I’ve never been here before I don’t know where I’m going or when I will be free from this terrible ship. I feel so helpless. I could scream and scream and scream but no one would hear me or help me. All I can do for now is to keep fighting and do whatever the white captain tells me to do. I am so nervous for them hitting me or yelling at me if I don’t do my job all right. I’m so thirsty and hungry I haven’t eaten or drunken for 3 days straight, all I can drink is gross rainwater filled with dirt and a lot of bacteria’s and when I get to drink that I’m super lucky and grateful... The conditions here is awful but if I have hope I know that I will make it. I pray to God every day and that gives me so much hope. I know that the persons who are doing this to us can be saved, I believe in that. But I do not understand why they’re doing this to us, I do not understand why we must be in chains, I do not understand the reason they’re taking us away from our beloved home and I don’t think that I’ll ever get a reason why or even understand it. It’s very early in the morning and I haven’t slept well at all but that’s how it is every night. There’s always so many hard waves hitting us especially at night and the smells here is awful. You can smell the puke, poop, and pee everywhere and we’re literally walking and sleeping in our own pee and shit, its terrible. I just want to go on land and be miserable there because here I can’t escape it, you only have your eyes and ears. Tonight, I have decided that I will be listening to my master’s plan, and I might even go in where I must not be. But I just really got to know where we’re going and maybe I will see my family again I don’t know where they are, but I hope that they have it so much better than me. I hope they have some good masters who take care of them. I think that’s what I will be hoping and believing. But they can also be dead, and I wouldn’t even know because we are so far away from each other. And I don’t even have that much time to be thinking. I have work to do.