My life's challenge

When I think about 'my life's challenge' the first thing that pops into my head is heights. I am terrified of heights. Even though I many times have been on top of really high places, like the Eiffel Tower, and some really high mountains in Turkey. One time when I were in Paris, there were this really high building, called Montparnasse. It is as high as the Eiffel Tower. I've been on top of both of them, but the difference between them is that the eiffel tower has metal walls, that you almost can't see through all around it. And Montparnasse just has glass walls! I didn't know that before I stood in front of it and realized how high up I were! That really scared me, and I had to sit down until we could leave the building. But I don't think that the actual heights is what I'm afraid of, I think it is the fear of falling. That's why my life's challenge is paragliding. I am in Turkey every single summer, and my stepdad and uncle did paraglide once. They asked me if I wanted to join them, but I was way to scared, and also too young to try it. I really wanna try it, but at the same time I don't want to. What if something goes wrong? What if the belt opens, and I'm falling down? What if I land another place than what was planned? And where would that even be? But of course there's also good things about it. It's just that damn jump I have to get over. Because, what if I'm slipping?! You know, like, just tripping over my feet or something, and then what? What would then happen after that? I don't even dare to think about that. But after the jump, right after I finally did it. Oh gosh, just thinking about it makes me want to try it. Just flying there, over the beautiful beach in Turkey. With a perfect view of everything. The beach, the city, everything. Just flying there, feeling the wind blowing in my hair. Flying. Just like a bird. And just feeling so free. It would be the most amazing experience in my life. And that is why this is my life's challenge. To get over that jump, and just fly away. I am going to Turkey again this summer, August 4th, and I am seriously considering paragliding. I just have to get myself together and do it. I don't think I will regret it, if I do it. It is just like jumping from the diving board. You are scared when you are standing on it, but once you get the courage to jump, you won't regret it.