The Road Ahead

”The road stretched on and on. Not a soul in sight. I looked around and the barren landscape stared back at me. The heat was oppressive. How long had I been going? Hard to say, but I was determined not to lose my nerve. I could not stop thinking about what had happened. My head was spinning. There was no point going back to the car. I picked up my bag again and went on”.

Yet again I’m here. Last time it was in my nightmare, but now it’s real. In my dream, I was driving on an empty road with low fuel, no food and only some water. I was hatred in anger since me and my girlfriend several times ended up in discussions during the day. As I always do, I decide to take an hour in my car by driving off my thoughts about break up with my girlfriend. I took a bag-pack with me every time this happened. There was a book, water and some LSD pills. I was very drug addicted. My days were always the same, weed, cocaine, shrooms & LSD. My girlfriend got into this life because of me, and that’s why we end up in discussions about it. In my young days, I always learned why it wasn’t good to drive when you were on drugs and on your own thoughts you couldn’t get out of your head. That’s the reason that I crashed. I crashed into a fence on this empty road. One Fence who was placed in the middle of nowhere. Even when you looked back, there was nothing to see, only a desert with a long road back home. Even longer than I thought, in 1 hour, I’ve just kept driving on this road in my thoughts. No cars or anything came past me. This road must have been hell, since there was nothing on it. I decided to take my bag with me on my way to find life again. I thought this was the end. I had no clue where I was, but I was experienced with this. In the military, I was taught how to survive in these kinds of situations. I also knew what to do, just follow the sun or get onto the top of a high tree, mountain or building. That was the 3 main things to get back to the track. But this was just a road. When you looked straight, there was still nothing to spot. All I was thinking about was drugs and what the next part of hell was. But the main thing that was in my thoughts as well was that if I ever got home, my girlfriend would’ve been gone. In 2 hours I’ve been walking on this damn road, followed by hell. Only a barren landscape has been on my sight. As I looked to my right, I could see a mountain about 2 miles away. My legs could barely move, my water bottle was empty and my mind was nearly harassed of my girlfriend. This must have been the worst part of my life where I had to walk 2 miles on these sleeping legs, in hunger of anything that could walk. As I continued to walk the 2 miles, it came straight back to me, that this must have been a second dream. One of the reasons I thought about that, might have been these LSD I took while driving the car. When I finally reached the mountain, I found out that this road went in circles. There weren’t any buildings on the left side of the mountain as I was on, but when you looked at the right side, I could see buildings and life. I had no clue of how I got to the road; it wasn’t even near my city. I couldn’t even see my car from the mountain, but at least I could see life again. After 5 hours I got home. My girlfriend was there, waiting for me to come back. When I opened the door, she ran towards me and hugged me. She was crying because of me leaving her. As soon as I heard that, I knew the relationship was saved.