Ulykkelig kærlighed og et venskabs dilemma

My best friendhow could he do this to me? We where best friends, why do he have to destroy our friendship? There where so many questions inside my head. John and I have been best friends as long as I can remember. When we where kid we went to the beach with our parents and we have always fun together.

Or friendship was really strong. But last weekend when I was with John at the shopping mall, we had agreed to go shopping together. We were going around, making fun of each other as we always did and laughing. Suddenly John looked very serious at me and says “there is something that I have to tell you”. At first I get really scared and get thinking what have I done?

Then the words came out of his mouth. He said “I think I am in love with you” in a quiet voice. I really did not know what to say or do. I just stood there. His words were hitting me. At first I said to myself no hi defiantly mean it as a friend, but no hi did not mean it as a friend. Then he said that he wanted to tell me that long time before but could not. I get shocked, how could he? now he has broken everything, he has broken the best friendship ever, doesn’t he understand it? I love John but just like a friend. Not like a boyfriend. I ran home and into my room as fast as I could. No matter how hard I tried not to think about what John said I just could get it out of my head. I cried my self to sleep that night. The next day in school was my biggest nightmare. John did not talk to me at all. He gets upset when I talked to other guys and ran away. I just not knew what to do. Some girls from my class came and talked to me. They asked me about John – they asked “are you and John in bad days?” and then I explained everything John said to me yesterday, I start crying. I knew I could not live without John he was one of the best thing in my life. But I could not be his girlfriend because I didn’t love him that way. I walked home alone from school, it didn’t feel normal because John and I used to walk from school together. We had planed so many plans, we had planed to take to Australia with my parents.