Marcus' dagbog: Ensomhed og depression

Dear diaryToday was a wired day, mom was crying in the morning again, i don’t know why she’s so sad, maybe it’s me or maybe it’s a guy who haven’t treated her well. Beside of mom’s behaviour, the morning was pretty normal. i took a long bath went down to the kitchen and took some Cheerios, i wanted coco pops, but mom says that i only can have coco pops on Sunday’s. Mom walked me to school like she used to i never had i problem with that until today. Mom kissed me goodbye, and i looked around and everyone around us was laughing, i walked up to the front door, and then the worst thing happened, mom yelled i love you! And everyone was laughing, even some of my teachers was laughing! I didn’t want to make mom sad. So i just yelled i love you back. The older kid in school was making fun of me, and they throw sweets at me. I have a very wired habit, when i get nervous i sing... and it’s not in my brain, it’s out laud... diary what can i do, to stop that! It’s not helping me at all.

I don’t want to be at home, i know mom needs me, but i do everything and nothing seems to make her happy. She’s just crying every day and every night. Maybe i’m a bad son, i don´t know...i will go to bed now diary it’s been a long day.Dear diaryI’m broken inside, but nobody can see it, and i don’t want anybody to know... mom still crying, i tried to make breakfast this morning, i made pancakes, and eggs, with bacon, but when she saw it, she, ran out to the bathroom and cried even harder. Whatever i do, it’s not good enough! And its tear me apart! She needs a man, who’s good to her, and gives her what she deserves, because i clearly don’t make her happy.