Anxiety in the Classroom

“...When you’re done with the test, I have given to you, I would like you to send it to me after class.”

Send it? I will never understand this. They will be so disappointed. What does it even mean? I finished it but everyone is still going – what did I do wrong? Should I wait until someone else says they're finished as well? Yes. No. Yes. No. I despise myself for it. Why don't I know anything about it? I can only blame myself. Everyone knows about this. Besides me. I must read it through again. Again. Just one more time. Okay this is the last time. Wait did I spell that correctly? Oh pff, good. See I knew it, I spelled it correctly. Wait did I remember doing everything in past tense? Yes good. I should have read more information. It wouldn’t have mattered anyways. What did I write again? I am forgetting it am I not? Why can I never remember these types of things. There’s so many people who expects me to get this correctly and this is what I do? Everyone else did good. I'm going to fail. I won't be able to graduate, and I will ruin my parents' expectations. No, they say, “if I do the best, I can, then I can't do better” But I CAN, do better. I can always do better. But I don’t. Because I'm lazy and I will forget it anyways. I'm going to fail. Everything will be wrong. I will get 00. It would ruin me. I just failed a test. It's all over. Why are everybody so calm? Something is wrong with me. Why can't I concentrate.